13 Nov , 2008

Experienced an roller coaster ride !!!

Today , 1/4 th of us "XXXXXX"ites have been fired. And life suddenly seems so un-stable. So, finicky...

Ending an 7 year long Motorola journey, when i decided to join XXXXXX, it was well-thought decision. I knew what kinda change i need. I knew exactly how XXXXX might help me and I knew exactly what risk it might pose.. But i decided to take plunge and taste the water.. Friends/Managers persuaded that this might be risky preposition.. but putting a over-confident front, I would say "I would face the challenge"..

Its been even less than 2 months ago that i joined XXXXXX and then this day "Today" arrived..Just another normal day. Just another analysis...But i realized that this might not be just another day when i got to know lady beside my desk has been asked to leave.. She was "fired".. I had heard about "firing", I had seen my US -counter part being fired. but I had not experienced it that close , till day.

In an next 15 minutes, my team member was asked to leave as well. The one with whom , I used to go for lunch everyday. The Guy was almost into an tears. did not really know how to console him , how to give him a strength. The team was just speechless..But little did i know , that this is just the beginning of the eventful day.

The same moment I got a call from one of my colleague. Heard him mumbling few words and I disconnected the call.. He had given me a news. My Email-Id was deactivated. He wanted to send me an mail but instead got a message "This email id does not exist" ..
U have to be real dumb not to understand what this means...

"The Email ID does not Exist"....


I knew that perhaps I might be called by HR , now. But I was just hoping against the hope.. I just hoped he might have mistyped my id. But it was not the case.. I tried to log-in to my email account.. And my hopes dashed when message popped up "Invalid user ID".

Now , I was sure.... This is no accident.. My Email -ID has been deactivated.. Hardly 2 months and I am gonna be fired. Brain understood it fully that today is my last day in the company. But heart never loses hope , it seems.. It does not want to accept what its brain correctly says.. I just foolishly hoped that this is just mistake.. May be , they wanted to deactivate somebody Else's id and deleted mine...May be, that's the reason that HR has not called me up yet.

Every passing second was fueling a suspense or so did my heart think...Finally, I decided to just go to HR and finish the suspense.. Went to her cube.. As soon as i faced her face , her face changed expression..Or so did I think. She brought serious expression even before i uttered a single word..She was to politely tell me what i already knew....

HR: Yes Abhishek , Whats up.
Me: My email id has been deactivated. so Am i in or out ... ( I smiled sheepishly).

Without changing her expression , she just dialed few numbers.

Her face was no more a serious one ...



HR: Oh Sorry Abhishek , It must have been a mistake. U r definitely in. Deleting ur ID must have been some goof-up somewhere..



Gosh !!! :) . roller coaster Ride Indeed. 3 hour long roller coaster Ride.

And I am still a proud "XXXXXX"ite.